She has a million phobias. Tarantulas, ghosts, cockroaches, rejection, lizards, darkness, etc. Then there's oblivion.
To be forgotten, to forget; to not be remembered, to not remember.
The biggest insult, and the deepest cut, is to be forgotten by the people who were once part of your life. To wake up and not remember a thing about the ones who once touched your life, is the scariest thing in the world.
Oblivion.
She wants to be remembered forever, because she never forgets. It isn't so much about committing all the wrongs and scars into memory; but more about engraving the deep set eyes into a foamy sea of reveries. "Yes, I once knew you."
You were once so important to me. You are important to me, still.
Memory is like a locked room, hidden in a corner, meant to be neglected. It's a room that she loves to visit, every now and then, and the key hangs around her neck like a noose. A slave to the past, clinging to it like opium.
Remembrance.
That's the nearest thing to immortality. That's the proof of her existence. Nothing scares her more than to cease to exist in your world.
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